The veil of 'self'
The enemy brings the veil of ‘self’ down with a simple tactic. In my situation he used our living circumstances in this motel room and our book, which seems to have stalled due to lack of interest, to focus my attention on ‘self’. My ‘self’ nature then craftily blinded my spiritual vision with tiny thoughts and feelings of discouragement and frustration that I was not diligent enough to thwart. The veil of ‘self’ fell, filling my foggy brain and heart with its toxicity. It was clear I was failing to take all my thoughts captive to Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5) and the nasty ones made it past security.
The battle for our thoughts and feelings is not one we can take lightly.
The Trojan horse
The enemy routinely sends Trojan horse deceptions into our minds and hearts that the ‘self’ nature that is all too willing to accept. Once they get in a veil of ‘self’ falls over our thoughts and feelings until we no longer see Jesus. Satan robs us of peace. This is an ongoing pattern we have observed for a long time. The subtlety by which satan and ‘self’ launch such an offensive makes the violation so very dangerous.
God’s message was simple, repent, and move on. Yes, it is that simple. Jesus does not make us jump through hoops, punish or make us go through some penance to restore a broken relationship. He wants us to recognize the wrong and reverse course. To see the wrong for what it is and make a conscious decision to reverse course. When I repented He blessed me by restoring clarity to my thoughts and feelings.
The veil of ‘self’ has been lifted.
The discouragement may come back, but at least I know the signs to look for. This latest test has made me aware of how serious my thoughts are. I am prepared and watchful for any thoughts that take my focus away from Jesus.
Our Father is watching over us, helping us to see what we cannot without His help. If your connection with Jesus seems murky, ask the Holy Spirit for clarity. He is more than willing to open your spiritual eyes to see Jesus.
Homer and Wanda